As long as I can remember, I have been fascinated with Christian mythology, specifically about angels and demons. I think I got it from my maternal grandfather, who was also into religious studies and was obsessed with finding what was true and not.

Back in my teenage years, I was fascinated with Manga’s like Angel Sanctuary by Yuki Kaori. The art left me in awe and curiosity about making a deeper story with angels and demons, which would come to fruition one day.

I wondered, why was I not more interested in the lives of Buddha and Mohammad? What was it within Christianity that attracted me more than the other two? I was into Yoga at one point, but it never truly stuck with my soul as the life of Christ did.

I was listening to Christian rock back in the day, without calling myself a Christian, but at one point, I was very close to becoming one. Instead, I wanted to let that wisdom be a part of my journey, even though I still have lovely conversations with Jesus from time to time.

The way we interact and are guided by spirituality is very diverse, but according to my knowledge, there are more pure spaces than others, and there are more empty spaces than others. There is a light that is brighter than all the others, that the soul of Christ carries, and why is that?

You can heal in a regular healing session, as well as being healed at church or over time, but we can’t properly define spirituality if we haven’t had each of our own experiences. It’s like a carnivore and vegan debate where we can agree on one thing, but maybe disagree on the other. What has worked for you has not worked for me.

Nevertheless, one thing is certain, and that is the rise of Christ for the past 6 years. More people than ever have been seeking him for energy, for comfort, for wisdom. The bible also drew me in back then. It is wise and has a lot to offer, and yet it lacks one thing. Ownership of personal power. We are giving our own sense of responsibility away when scripture and another being become more important than ourselves. However, the flip coin to this is the greatest milestone for why Chrsitianity has spread and why it’s so needed in the times that we are, and that is, humility.

The balance of love. Not shame, but the equal exchange of power, where nobody is afraid to use their voice, and people have the sanity to not misuse their voice.

When we see Christian teachings like this, we move into Gnostic territory. Where Jesus is still present. However, his teachings are about balancing, maintaining and operating your life and power, instead of giving it away to a force outside of you; it’s a calling you sense inside of you. Where the longing for God cannot be denied, and within that yearning, silence and prayer, the brightest light will come to us. This is what is called “Gnosis,” a deep understanding and inner knowing of remembering what we are as beings on this planet. Deeper than what any new age teacher or new thought leader can provoke in you.

New age and new thought has its place, as many of the thought patterns within these movements are extensions of Gnosticism, but we are as individuals sensing ourselves into explanations of mysticism and the meaning of living a whole life in accordance with our quantum nature.

It’s about the spirit and the light, not really about the scripture. It can do something to you. You can be pulled into it, and it can save many lives. But don’t let it become a false light. Something that will leave you more depressed or desperate than before, this is the core teaching of Gnosticism. What is a true awakening? What type of inner knowing is so powerful that you don’t lose sight of who you are and where you come from?

You are part of a whole system, and that whole system is also fractured into something that seems beautiful, but is dualistic in its construct and can create fragments to create wholeness. The other part, however, is pure power and love that cannot be manipulated or destroyed. It’s trusted, as it’s the foundation for our natural state of being. Something you can only describe when you have had the experience of eternal love, beauty and light through the meeting of Jesus Christ or another experience where a special spirit left you in a state of awe and miracles. Not even the “light masters” can make us feel this way – often, these can be the cause of an awakening that leaves us more empty than before. Delicious appetizers that never leave you fully nourished.

This is the most needed medicine in a world of humans that doesn’t know how to use their senses and questions themselves too much, as the normal societal narrative falls apart. God is real, but a God that is humble and healing. A delight to be around in the best possible way.

These were my thoughts for this week. If you would like, you can sign up for my newsletter in the footer.

And if I don’t hear your thoughts about this, I will see you later in the next blog post.

Below, you can see a picture of an old drawing I made all the way back in 08 at the age of 17 of my character Mei (in her angelform it’s Meiri. Hebrew for “the illuminated”).